So … I’m going to let loose. I am extremely afraid. I’m not afraid in the sense a normal person gets afraid. I’m not afraid of heights, I’m not afraid of falling, I’m not afraid of getting hurt, and I’m not even afraid of being a lone. What I am most afraid of is being insufficient. What I am most afraid of, is not living up to my true desires. What I am most afraid of is dying and know I did everything I could and didn’t make it. I am the example of setting lofty unattainable goals, but I have had these goals since I can remember. These weren’t whims that just came up last minute. I have wanted and longed for these things since I can remember. Everything in my life has made it seem impossible and told me it is not possible, and though I have already forced myself to give up, the wants, and the longing refuse to go away. So today. I am going to stop being afraid. Today I am going to start going after what I want with ALL THE FORCE I HAVE and if I don’t make it I’m going to make it. I have been afraid to try, but if I don’t try. I’ll never find out, and that fear….is sooo much worse.
